nothing to do

actually aku baru jer terlelap atas meja while reading nelson..aduhai..macam mn nak ambil paed ni.. so aku buka blog lama aku kat friendster and went through my blog.. not all laa.. boleh ting tong aku baca semua... just a few months yang mana aku berada dalam emosi yang kurang stabil hehehee... honestly kagum gak tengok blog sendiri..(kalo aku tak kagum sendiri sapa lagi?) heheeh (alamak dok bersin jer dari semalam nak kena fever ker?).... blog aku bukan lah satu blog dimana semua orang nak baca... blog aku hanya buah fikiran aku di masa itu di tika itu...(acheh...agogo....)... people out there sometimes tulis cerita cinta tahap boleh buat novel cinta... aku? ... aku lak citer ttg diri aku... pendapat aku... and any interesting incident yang berlaku... masa baca certain2 previous post tu... tak sangka aku ada tulis tentang riefhana and paling kelakar tentang insan yang amat tak penting dalam hidup aku Dayangku Norfadziana (tp kat blog tu aku eja salah lor...)... kelakar kan... insan2 depan mata aku... taklak aku cerita...(takut kena band kot..adoi).... sejak sekolah rendah writing stupid2 thing like journal, esei and cerpen memang favourite aku.... started masa sekolah rendah.. nak naik darajh enam kitorang diberi homework..30 karangan and submit masa naik darjah enam... tak sampai 30 hari aku dah siap dah 30 karangan aku... biasanya karangan aku berbentuk cerita ringkas... nak buat macam mn kaki kelentong...form 2 masa tu musim budak2 ni buat novel (serius tebal kalah bapak novel diorang buat..siap binding lagi... macam manuskrip tu) aku just meneruskan hobi aku menulis cerpen... bagi aku novel ni terlalu rumit ... cerpen..pendek... kadang2 punyalah sentul aku wrote under bed... actually bawah katil sebab ada insan yang macam bangang tidur kat katil aku... and my class mate and room mate akan baca buku cerpen aku and comment... aku have no idea mana aku dapat idea menulis and keep on menulis... cerita yang berbeza2... and biasanya bahasa yang aku gunakan ringan dan mudah difahami...(konon nak jadi macam ahadiat akashah).. kat KISAS lak.. kitorang kena buat journal.. and one of my journal was bout garbage collector...(masa tu english teacher aku yang tanda tu mesti rasa macam nak ketawa guling2)...korang nak tahu y aku tulis bout those guys..? simple sebab masa tu aku duduk tepi tingkat so most of the days aku nampak diorang datang...kagum tengok diorang yang berusaha bersungguh2 to keep our earth clean... masa form 5...paling terharu.. cerpen aku dimasukkan dalam nadwah punya risalah first edisi tu.... tapi aku tak hantar untuk majalah sekolah sebab diorang prefer hantar pantun bout us kot... aku pun tak sure sangat...yang paling kelakar...? SPM exam english paper... aku ingat lagi aku buat sambung cerita... tentang kembar yang terpisah sebab parents divorce... diorang sangat rindu each other... one passed away due to chronic disease and aku end up cerita tu ngn the the other girl started to have blurry vision and know that it now her turn...part yang kelakarnya..aku siap sebak2 menulis citer ni, tahap cipan feeling... sebab tergopoh gapah aky tak check grammer.. tp Alhamdulillah GCE-O aku dPT B3.. sedangkan kawan aku yang mengajar aku GCE-O B4 heheheh.... aku stop menulis sejak masuk matrik kot... and only started blogging masa tahun 1 kat imu.... seriously.. aku bukannya terror pun menulis... sekadar menconteng apa yang aku nak... contohnya mcm ni... panjang jela tapi hampeh.... honestly.. aku rindu sangat nak tulis cerpen.,... tak tahu sama ada aku boleh menulis lagi ke tak....

Semifinal AJL 2009

honestly i m not the one who is very enthu bab-bab hiburan ni... and i only know that now is AJL season when farah watched (partially sleeping) the show last friday... how pethatic i m.. haha...(empty can huhu)...and when i sign in my facebook i noticed shout out ebil about shila sang faizal tahir's song bencinta so badly... (my ayah will kill him if he know that Faizal Tahir screwed up Bahasa Melayu.. no such thing bencinta in kamus dewan bahasa)... so i m very excited waiting some1 uploading the video in the you tube... so now ... ultimately some1 who is generous enough upload the video... so from my limited edition knowledge of music's point of view... it is reallt2 totally suck.... luckily this song succesfully enter final AjL.. of coz not becoz of this unmatured singer..(fuyo umnatured tu... bravo iefa).... so what is moral of the story? simple loh.... take care of ur health so that u can attend ur most important and memorable event.... (dedicate kusus untuk insan bernama Faizal Tahir..ahaks)

delicious, cheap dinner

yup... at last after months moving back to batu pahat, leaving the most memorable seremban, we managed to eat delicious but very cheap dinner which cost eRM12.30 per person...consisted of ikan siakap tiga rasa (quite big, sufficient to eat for 4 people), tomyam for two people (very tasty and for me the quantity is almost like 3 people tomyam at other place..too exagarate is it?)... telur bungkus and kailan ikan masin( with the mountain quantity it almost look like we mentekedarah the vege... it was really large amount).. and three plates of rices...(share 4 people)... in seremban we really enjoy sharing food like this at man tom yam and kedai sesat... at man tom yam basically there was no 'fishing activity' so we replaced ikan tiga rasa with ayam or udang tepung... and it usually cost us around RM13-15 each.. (udang usually we pay separate as it was quite expensive....if at kedai sesat (i'm not sure who started to call the restaurant as kedai sesat)... we had a very adventourous activity..yup fishing activity... haha... not really fishing actually, we pick any fish we want.. the fishes were put inside a sampan so we have to gali the ice and other fish to get the perfect size of fish which affordble for us... for me the fishes were not really fresh compared to fishes that u can find in Johor... but still.... it was delicous as the cook, cooked it properly... in Batu pahat we tried once at rosalinda restaurant... we ordered almost the same menu (typical menu than u can quantified the standard isnt it heheheheheh)... and it cost us RM90+... serius not joking... the ikan tiga rasa (no fishing activity, just order verbally), cost us RM50 which the same price that we pay for all our food today.. so damn expensive... the taste? it was not cooked properly.. there still fishy smell.. and i was kinda surprised with the fish quality as batu pahat is very famous with not so bad fresh fish..(not so bad as comparing to Rengit...) but the fish that we ate that day more like a plastic fish... tasteless, fishy smell...just imagine whether worthy for the price or not... but today... we really satisfied with the food and price..so can eat again next time... hehehehe

something is not right

really feel that something is not right today.. y?
because unpredictable now i m listening to siti nurhaliza's song which was given by farah @ nur long time ago... i never managed to listen to her music because i dont really like her personality... hmm m i at the death's door or in malay we call buang tebiat? maybe.. haha... OMG what is this song.. endang-endong... bulan purnama mengolak cinta.. bla. bla... endang-endong2x sayang... what ever.. dont really know meaning of endang-endong... only like the part endang-endong si endang-endong..endang endong di nusantara endang-endong lagu keroncong.. endang-endong diberi nama... endang-endong si endang-endong,endang endong si rumpun bangsa..endang-endong rentak keroncong... mari berdendang ragam pusaka... berendang-endong serumpun bangsa... si endang endong ragam pusaka hehehe
have no mood today.. endang-endong

hatred

adoi... bunyi title mmg menghatredkan (sorry ayah i spoilt my bahasa melayu.. haha).... i dont know why, but i started to hate my self, friends (not all...only certain...), my passionate in medic, and lot more... it all started this monday when something haapened... (some people know it) since then i feel the feeling of hatred of those guys... i dont care anymore what they thought bout me...(should i say go to hell?..hmmm too harsh isnt it....?) i dont care if my precious secret is going to be revealed by one of my fren.... the point here is.... i dont know why i couldnt stand with them anymore.... now, every second and every breath i took.. i just wish that i can be at home and sleep..(huih?...hahahaha)... i hope i m not in a situation what we call depression as my compliance to medication is suck... sometimes i wanna yell at them... like what i did to andre... hahahaha (sorry andre but the keling word is not acceptable internationally.. gadis india is still can lor.. and actually even with andre previously i didnt really yell but i used harsh word...slumber bapak ko... gosh)... different from other person... i m not someone who can make stupid2 joke and laugh together.... but i tried very hard to change myself... i noticed that i accept the india girl very calmly playing around with it and happy with it...people might think alaa it is only simple thing... but honestly, it is not.. to achieve that stage i really have to learn to accept joke... so when they make fun of me i try to accept it... but for keling word.. seriosly i cant accept it.. and i believe that other people also the same... it is more like insulting people instead of making a joke.. and day after day.. i just accept most of what my friend said as a joke... how should i describe that it is very difficult for me to change... maybe u can ask my beloved mother who is huzaifah... she knows me better than i m... (i learn who i am , my attitude, behaviour from her)... but as something **** happened on monday when some1 directly sound me... so i know... i cant pretend or force my self to be some1 else although it is a better one... very said that my apologize was not accepted (guys seroisly huzaifah is not a person who can apologize when she really make mistake among her fren... hidung tinggi minah ni)... so go to hell of other people... i would never tolerate to joke anymore... so guys sorry but this is what u ask.... and as no one will read this stupid blog... i just wanna say f*** u to who ever think he/she is superior....

let's investigate Michael Jackson

haha.. i really love the tittle... maybe after watching pisau cukur the movie i started wanna be a private investigator... hahahah just kidding dowh... last weekend i watched oprah show talking bout Michael jackson... basically they showed the interview with Michael jackson a few months before he was accused with sexual abuse case.(1993 if i not mistaken).. so it was ages ago... meanwhile, oprah commented about the interview... her opinion about certain2 part of the interview... it was really interesting... i dont know maybe becaUSE i never try to know the man named Michael Jackson before.... it was an eye opener for me... huh? i meant from that one to two hours show it really revealed who is Michael Jackson... especially when MJ talked bout his father... he claimed that his father was so damn strict and sometimes beat up him... and the end of his sentences he kept apologized to his father by saying.. sorry joseph, plzz dont get angry... not once but few times... like what oprah said, we can see how terrified he was at that moment eventhough he was called as king of pop... scared to death of his father... the feeling was different when they talked about changing of skin colour... so he did mention about skin problem that changed his skin complexion... .. so i browsed to mr google (mr Baha's fav searching engine)... so i found that he got vitiligo... and there were also few pictures of him before he went for depigmentation of the skin... maybe it was true that he had vitiligo which lead him to have inferior complex... then he decided for depigmentation of the skin eventhough he denied this part.... but as an entertainer to have vitiligo is a curse... ur skin defect would be the head line in all the news paper instead of ur career... people would look at u with different reaction.. disgust... it looked like u have leprosy... then in his context (if it was true that he had vitiligo) then depigmentation was the best decision for him... eventhough most people live happily ever after with this disease.... however.. my statement didnt mean that i also support the operation done for his nose and chin... these two things absolutely different context... ignore this part k.. he passed away already... better not talking something bad... lastly.. i found out that when he passed away, he was bald, very thin 80 pound or more not very sure and the gastric contents only pills.. so guys.. dont u think that this guy suffered a lot mentally and physically when he alive? pity him... he didnt really enjoy the king of pop title.. he lost his identity... childhood life (that one he build neverland which ultimately he had to sell it), his happiness.. and until his last breath he still could not be himself... may Allah bless him

scramble egg

uik tajuk macam marvellous... hmmm that tittle jer yang come across my mind malam2 buta buti ni...ops actually early morning.... dah lama tak menjahanamkan blog sendiri... basically dah dekat 1 weeks lebih kot... last post was bout the hotel room service... past tu aku memang takder mood langsung nak menaip... memandngkan tajuk blog ni scramble egg.. mean aku punya citer pun macam scramble egg.... firstly i wanna share my feel... giving up rehab my favourite subject... lets think... m i really into rehab or ortho? dont know... u know... what my ambition is to be a cardiologist eventhough in musculoskeletal posting i scored better than cvs posting... and since when i started to fall in love to ortho... since prof harwant taught me how interesting ortho can be... tp now aku sendiri tak tahu mana knowledge aku bout ortho..n all common sense doenst make sense at all for me... my common sense skill totally abolish... seem like it dissappeared.... hmmm sorry yer my though kala ni tak betul lagi.. so campur2 mcm scramble egg... so i havent make my mind to choose ortho or cardio as my master later... lets it go with the flow... mana ler tahu tub tub aku pilih gynae as my subspecialize... (uik kena puji ngn datuk Siva tu masa final exam sem 9 kembang kembang hehehehe)... but i dont know... sometimes i just wanna choose something else as my profesion.... jadi gym trainer ker... peper la selain medic line... jadi penternak lembu berjaya pun ok gak..... entah ler.... aku have no idea... now prepare for exam pun tak tahu... uik per kah yang berlaku kepada bahasa melayu ku... kelihatannya ia tunggang langgang sama sekali.... serius.. at this moment otakku serabut serabit... giving up rehab... tgk muka macam cool jer... but actually when i giving up this it seem like separated from half of my soul...( uik metafora or hyperbola?).... only becoz of a person... a makcik yang aku rasa have severe anger state of depression... make me think that rehab isnt my line... no no no... now what should i be then..(adoi td kata biar it follow the flow... now start think back).... nak jadi stewardess adoi tak cukup ctk n hot... nak jadi per yer.. asal jangan jual nasi lemak tepi jalan ya udah...
chnage topic ler bosan... hmm now try to loss weight bout 7 kg... cheh semakin bersmangat akibat bondaku yang tak percaya i will become thinner like i used before...(aku sangat kurus masa aku menengah rendah sebab aku sangat aktif).. honestly aku rasa metabolic rate aku currently memang amat rendah... masa dulu aku boleh kurang 3-4 kilo within a week without working so damn hard like this... adoi.... dah tua nampaknyer... hmmm and when i m 30 kalo aku tak jaga pemakanan sihat nampaknyer aku akan end up doing liposuction by the age of 35...hahahaha... kuang kuang kuang.......
next topic.... (dah bosan ler tu) ... marriage? hmmm depa dok talking bout this topic recently... semua orang tahu kan yang aku tak berapa minat untuk settle down... hmm semua orang think that aku ni bla bla bla bla bla... actally tak der sapa tahu per yang kat dalam otak aku ni... hmmm... so korang tak yah ler judge aku.... kejap nak kawen kejap tak nak... marriage... semua orang nak kawen tu kan naluri... tp certain thing in life tak memudahkan kite untuk buat semua ni.... kadang2 ada halangan yang hanya kita yang tahu... the rest tak namapk and tak lihat... so guys korang boleh ingat yang aku tak bersedia for settle down sebab aku kejar impian aku.. hmm actually tu bukan menjadi masalah besar.... there is somthing else yang menjadi batu penghalang yang aku sendiri tak terucap... and to get the answer for it? (jangan harap ... biar pecah pewut aku... i will not let other people know)... hahahahhaaha....(bunyi macam aku mandul jer... huh? adakah aku mandul....question mark)
next... dont wanna talk more that topic.. oooo..... movie pisau cukur yang kitorang tengok sesama malay girls... (eventhough aku kat bt pahat ni tak diiktiraf as malay).... hmmm that movie... memang cukup menarik.... tapi citer dia macam fairy tale separuh... tapi fairy tales tu di sampaikan dengan cara yang sempoi and menarik... really like when in fazura's mind all brand come out... oh dior instead of dear... oh my l.v.(always fail to pronounce this brand forever).. oh my gucci... oh my prada and etc... marvellous love it... nak buat gak lak... but after this change it into anatomy... oh my psoas major.. oh my hamstring... oh my rectus femoris... huhuhu... marvellous.... a good idea to remmber anatomy...ahahahhahah........ oh ya... really fall in love with sahredza minhat the actor yang berlakon as faqir yang totally not fakir at all.... (what is faqir mean in arabic?)... oh my humerus... he is totally hot... horgeous...naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... he is cute actually.... comel.... from his blog (oh my ulna... aku dah jadi stalker ker?).. he is 29 y.o... dont know la betul ker tak.... and cari dalam facebook tak der pun mamat ni.... tak tahu la if he use redza as his nick... tak pernah nak bersungguh2 try... tapi from mr google... actualy mamat ni kiraya seorang writer and poet... really ker yang latter tu? he is a writer.... penulis skrip teater... and he does involve in theater... banyak gak ler blog2 yang aku redah citer bout him acted in theater.... and korang kalo gi dalam mr redza ni... tak banyak bender die taip.... hmmm takder masa kot....
hmmm... oklah that my scramble egg.... esok lusa bila aku free and ada idea aku prepare for korang rojak mamak ker.... perperlaaa...(L award for lame joke in this pagi-pagi buta)